Today I got up early morning to realise that there was no power. which meant that I couldnt see anything(the weather outside was really cloudy and foggy)...I couldnt make tea..I couldnt warm water ..And worst of all the hot blower which gave me some bit of comfort in this cold weather..that was off. The room was freezing and worst of all..I had to reach office because of an important meeting. And somehow the hopelessness of the situation was so bad that I almost took two minutes to sit down and think as to how suc small things like tea in the morning was something so crucial to my day that I was almost disoriented due to its absence. And somehow that made me even more sad. So I did what I generally do when upset. I sat down and thought. I kept feeling sad and kept thinking. It was one full hour of self pity and somehow a long pentup anger that surged through me in sinusoidal waves ..as I felt so alone..suddenly alone in a cold dark freezing room. For that one hour I felt away..a long long away from home..surrounded by black rainbearing cumulo-nimbus...cold wind biting through my shirt and a long winding road infront of me. It was the nadir..and that too at the starting of the day. .
Then I gathered my thoughts and realised that I was sad not at the situation but the singular fact that the cold had made me get into an impossible position as regards to taking a bath. I was actually not scared of the situation but at the thought of standing infront of a bucket of ice cold water.
So I thought..we will cross the bridge when we come to it. I dont have to get into a towel before the bath so I could stall the situation. Which meant that I could brush,flush and shave all clad in three inches of wool. Relieved ,I started out on mission 'get ready'....
As things started rolling,I realised that my freind downstairs had his geyser working..so there was a way out. It was just a mental block that I had to take a cold bath. So to cut a long story short..I was all up and shining by the time it was office time. Suddenly i felt that the clouds had lifted and given me a new day.
I thought of writing it all down because of a singular thing..the rainbow and variety of depression caused by a small disruption..was something I thought was very abnormal..plus more abnormal was the fact that I do vividly recall it...
So I thought why not...:)
Then I gathered my thoughts and realised that I was sad not at the situation but the singular fact that the cold had made me get into an impossible position as regards to taking a bath. I was actually not scared of the situation but at the thought of standing infront of a bucket of ice cold water.
So I thought..we will cross the bridge when we come to it. I dont have to get into a towel before the bath so I could stall the situation. Which meant that I could brush,flush and shave all clad in three inches of wool. Relieved ,I started out on mission 'get ready'....
As things started rolling,I realised that my freind downstairs had his geyser working..so there was a way out. It was just a mental block that I had to take a cold bath. So to cut a long story short..I was all up and shining by the time it was office time. Suddenly i felt that the clouds had lifted and given me a new day.
I thought of writing it all down because of a singular thing..the rainbow and variety of depression caused by a small disruption..was something I thought was very abnormal..plus more abnormal was the fact that I do vividly recall it...
So I thought why not...:)
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